Whew... I feel like I'm working without a net today. Without any forethought I decided not to pump today. My past few attempts only yeilded 2.5 oz. My heart is literally beating fast. I just may break out in a sweat. I'm in turmoil. I knew the day was coming I just didn't know it was going to be today. *big sigh*
I 'm not going to be pumping at work anymore and I'm scared as hell. I still plan on nursing him on weekends and evenings if my body will cooperate. Gosh, I sure hope it does. I love that time with Carsen. I made it to almost 8 months of his life. I feel like any minute the Breast feeding police are going to drag me by the ear, along with my pump and demand that I NOT deprive my son of his God-given right to nurshiment only his mother can provide. I realize it's my overwhelming guilt. I know I've said it before, I feel like I have failed but I did make it to 7.5 months. That's good. That's damn good.
Wouldn't you know it too, I got a call yesterday right before my lunch that I had to pick up Carsen. He had 3 loose bm's and according to policy he had to go home. He couldn't come back without a doctor's note and 24 hrs. So, I'm thinking great, breastfeeding is nearly zilch and he's getting his first ailment. Way to go mom, just in time for winter too!
Much to my relief and $30 dollars later, the doctor couldn't find anything wrong with Carsen. No fever, no change in demeanor and no ear infections, he was just fine.
I'm anxious to get home. I'm hoping I can breastfeed Carsen before my WIlton Course 3 class. It's my final and I almost didn't want to go. I went home for lunch, made some buttercream icing, crumb coated my cakes and covered them with homemade pink marshmellow fondant. I hope it holds up. 
It's a bit lumpy but overall I'm pleased. I'm going to decorate it in class. I've decided on Cornelli lace and may be some dotted scrolls with a beaded border. Wish me luck!
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- candesintx
- October 22nd, 2007
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Here it is October 22, 2007 in Texas and, hold on to your hat, we are experiencing a "cool" front. YEAH, a cool front. It's actually somewhere in the high 50's right now and it's wet and windy too. Unbelieveable, I know but it is. Fall weather when it's actually Fall. The kicker? We're supposed to hit the 80's by the end of this week.
Tucker has really hit a growth spurt. His legs got longer but his waist is small so finding pants that fit lately are the bain of my existence. He literally has only ONE pair of jeans and I'm staring the Fall/Winter season in the face. His shirts are shorter. He can no longer fit into his 24mos shirts (wow go figure he's turning THREE mom!). I don't even think 2T is going to work for us. The boy needs new clothes.
Carsen also needs clothes. I don't know where Tucker's hand me down's went but even if I did find them I'm certain that window is closed. Carsen is in 6 to 9 months and Tucker wasn't wearing that size during the winter. I can't win. So, I guess it's time to hit the consignment shops and garage sales. We're on a reallly TIGHT budget so I HAVE to find these clothes fast!
Moving on...
Did I mention I've been taking Wilton Cake decorating classes? Yep, for the past 2.5 months I've been discovering a new passion. Course three is two tier cakes and fondant. I'm finally working with fondant. Wednesday I actually get to make fondant roses. I'm a bit intimidated. I may use my Wilton fondant, although I did make my own Marshmellow Fondant. MMF tastes a heck of a lot better than Wilton's fondant, I'm told.
I have NEVER worked with fondant. I don't know WHAT it's supposed to feel like. So, here I am making my own fondant with no prior experience and I have no idea if I did it correctly. ACK!!! I requested samples from online from two different places. I received a few samples from one place but not enough to say "yes, I did it correctly." What am I going to do?
You don't really EAT fondant flowers unless you're the type of person who REALLY has a sweet tooth. Fondant is really for show. I"m told most people peel it off cakes. That right there just sounds gross to me. Why make a cake if it doesn't taste good? That being said, there is fondant that taste good, i.e. MMF. Now that tastes good!
