It's wonderful that he loves me like that and wants to be with me rather than his friends but I feel horrible when I have to leave him like that. I wish I didn't have to push him into his class.
It's a total flashback for me.
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candesintx- September 26th, 2007
aggravated
My son, Tucker, was so excited to be going to the BIG class, Preschool. Hugs and kisses and a wave good-bye and I was on my merry way to work. I gather the novelty has worn off and we're back to hiding behind Mommy's legs, clinging, whinning and crying and me peeling him off of me just so I can leave.
It's wonderful that he loves me like that and wants to be with me rather than his friends but I feel horrible when I have to leave him like that. I wish I didn't have to push him into his class.
It's a total flashback for me.
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- candesintx
- September 24th, 2007
distressed
The video perfectly illustrates the struggle I've been going through. I'm not necessarily doing bad things but I'm still torn away from the presence of God by simply trying to take care of my family.
There never seems to be enough hours in the day. It pains me that I put Him last and MAY BE just may be I give him 10 minutes before I go to bed before I drift off to sleep. My spirit so desires to be with Him.
I've been trying to make this family management work in my own strength and I am failing miserably. I go to church every Sunday. My husband and I host a bible study in our home and I'm involved in a women's bible study group that meets every other week. IN all of that, I am still far away from His presence.
What a shame.
I want to do it all and I can't. Not in my strength. I am so thankful He doesn't give up on me.
- Mommy, Mommy, Mommy
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- candesintx
- September 13th, 2007
chipper
I think I heard "Mommy" a million times from the moment Tucker woke up and before Tucker set foot in his class room the other day. That boy never tires saying that word and may even ignore my reply, "What?" just so he can hear himself say it again. I know, I know, one day he's going to just say "Hey, Mom" or I may have to wait days until the teenager has something to say to.
I'm living in the now and BOY does that get old fast. It's actually tiring. How do you keep your cool and respond lovingly as if it were the first time and not the 100th?
That being said, I just LOVE my son. He is so full of energy, so full of life.
