He could have asked for the moon and if that would have made him better I would have found a way to do it. I love that boy.
When Tucker is getting sick he wakes up crying in the night and it's the kind where he's not awake but his eyes are opened and he's sitting up in his bed hopping and thrashing a bit. So he had been doing this for two nights.
Flash forward last night around 1:30 AM, Tucker crawls into bed and tells us he wants to tell us a story. "Once upon a time there was a circus..." and something about a light. (Don't go to the light.) A wicked, eerie feeling creeps over me. Is his head going to spin now? I watch and wait.
Todd craddles him against his chest and informs me he's burning up. I scramble to find the motrin. He feels really hot but it reads 100.7. My heart breaks a little to see him suffering.
He woke up feeling better but that could just be the motrin. We'll see.
Side Note - I'm just giddy over this Harmony One unviversal remote! Who would have thought, huh? LCD color screen, one touch and the system powers up. TV, sound and dvr WOW! I've read some people have their a/c window units programed on this! DH wants to buy a ceiling fan that comes w/ a remote soley for the purpose of programming it to the Harmony One. LOL
Anyone need 15% off, compliments of Bzz Agent, for theirs?
- Location:work
- Mood:
drained - Music:Glenn Beck
Chili's Bigmouth Bacon burgers - Rcvd 4 free coupons to try out their burgers. We took another couple and enjoyed free burgers.
Horizon Milk w/ DHA - Rcvd two coupons for FREE 64oz milk and .55 cent off coupons to pass out to friends
Oust - Recvd two large air and surface sanitizer sprays and 4 coupons for FREE cans for friends.
ZipLoc - Rcvd 2 large containers and 2 large storage bags with coupons to pass out to friends
Aveeno - Rcv Positively Ageless Firming and Lifting night cream (full size product) ($19.99) w/ 5 coupons w/ samples to pass out.
*Harmony One universal remote control (value $250) - Rcvd remote for free and handouts for 15% off to give to friends. I am loven this remote.
Those are just a few. All I have to do is spread the word and report back (quick fill out form online) what people are saying. SO SIMPLE. I was very suspicious but it really is free. Give it a try. I can post pics in case yer doubtin' but it's been a lot of fun.
My SIL is enjoying the perks.
Thanks Bzz Agent!
Sorry for the commerical. Normal programming will resume.
- Mood:
okay
I decided to post a limmerick I wrote eons ago. It's a limmerick that I include in just about every paper journal I begin. Front and center. It's the only limmerick I've written
I used to write a lot of poems and short stories when I was young, when emotions were raw, or when I was in search of love or swimming in the pain of lost love.
When I got married I didn't have much time to write. I was trying to find my way as a new wife, no longer responsible for just me. Throw in children years later and the passion is slowly returning. I now see life through a new set of eyes. It's fun and scary at the same time.
I'll have to retrieve my story, "I once knew a bee who had allergies..." I thought of this way before that ho hum commercial for allergy meds came out. You know the one with that bee that sounds like Antonio Banderas? I don't like the cga (computer generated animation). Blech!
Chelle - I just received some Aveeno Positively Ageless Lift and Firm night cream from Bzz Agent (that's another post). This stuff is good!
Tonight we sign Tucker up for soccer. I'm nervous but excited for Tucker. I'll sacrifice my Saturday's so my child can burn off some energy. Better the soccer field than my house.
- Location:office
- Mood:
content - Music:Glenn Beck
I received an invitation from the NE Baptist hospital for former NICU patience. Such a mix of emotions for me. My first reaction was excitement. Wait till they get a look at Carsen. You'd never think he was a preemie.
A flood of memories rush in as well. The one that stands out the most was having to be away from Tucker for the first time. I had never stayed away one night let alone the days to follow after Carsen's birth. Tucker was 2 1/2 years old at the time.
Never mind that I had a new baby on a bubble C-PAP on a feeding tube, it was gut wrenching to watch my oldest son leave each night. I still remember Tucker and Daddy walking hand in hand to the elevators. I painfully watched them step in and disappear. Gone until the next afternoon. I was left alone in a huge hospital with a baby I couldn't even hold. It was the loneliest I ever felt in my life time.
My c-section was my second ever operation in my life,
Welcome to my yard. Take a tour and enjoy!
Tucker is going through some kind of changes. I think I'm going to have some one on one time with him tomorrow. Todd is taking him in the morning to do a kid's workshop at Home Depot then during Carsen's nap time he and I will go to the "Popcorn" store aka Target.
I made the mistake of reading MSN's story on what happens as the body ages. How depressing. I should have approached it like reading the symptoms of medications. I don't read them lest they influence my body. Some days I laugh at my new routines of moisturizers whereas before I never gave them a second thought. Now I know as I get older my skin gets drier.
You know, I figured out why older adults listen to the music of their time, even to this day. It's because it takes them back to those happier days when they were younger, teens and the crazy things they used to do.
I listened to a new station on the way to get the boys yesterday. (I always listen to talk radio or Christian K-Love) ANY WAY, they were playing some 80's music and immediately I was remembering my best friend, Tandi and the fun things we used to do, that Summer a long time ago and high school.
I listened for a while but decided to move on.
- Location:desk
- Mood:
contemplative - Music:talk radio
Thanks Neda for sharing this. I like my slogan.
I dread Tucker's bedtime routine. The boy can stall. His bedtime starts at 8:30. Ideally it would end there too but it doesn't. He picks a story and I read it to him but as soon as I say, "...the end," he pipes in, "My turn," as he takes the book from me and thumbs to the beginning of the story. He stares at the jumble of words, looks up at me as if I should know what the next step is (and I do NOW) and says, "You have to help me." I'm cringing inside, I JUST read this! I say to myself. Am I smiling? Did I sigh too loud? I so much want bedtime to be a sweet note to the end of a crazy day. I REALLY try.
So, I've learned to quiz him as he looks at the pictures. I ask him to tell me what happened next then I fill in a detail here and there. His telling of the story goes by much quicker.
You'd think it would end there but NoooOOOooo, it doesn't.
- Music:silence
In high school I was a scrawny 96 lbs with a goal of breaking 100 lbs. All those taunts and jeers, being called a string bean or a stick were true. I ate like crap but gained nothing. Clothes never fit right and I was sooo glad when the store 5 7 and 9 opened. They actually had size 0 and the clothes were hot!
Fast forward before children I averaged 104 to 105 lbs. Fast forward again, after two babies, my body has changed in weight and shape. I now average (yes, I'm about to tell you my actual weight) 120 lbs. That's big for me and yes, I'm sure there are those of you who'd LOVE to be 120. I want to at least be 110 and toned.
I've watched and learned how the gradual weight gain creeps on. I'm learning the tricks of the trade. If I eat say a cupcake, I tell myself I'll just excercise and work off the calories. I don't. I know what clothes to wear to hide the bludge. I no longer desire the fitted shirts. Thank god for the recent trend of flowing maternity-like tops. WooHoo!
I've watched myself graduate to size 5 then 6 and just recently I bought a pair of jean crop pants in size (holding my breath) size 7.
Do I do anything to stop this trend? IF I do it's short lived. It sucks that I get so busy after work that I have no time to walk. Dare I walk around the neighborhood, I infringe upon my baby's dinner time which would cut in to his play time and then viola it's bed time at 7:30pm.
I've thought of joining a gym but I'd have to do that on my lunch hour. Sure I could take the kiddos to the gym daycare but the whole idea creeps me out. Do they get qualified people? Is it clean? The last thing I need is another group of kids to expose my children to. As if regular daycare ain't bad enough.
Where's my husband in all this? Busy. He doesn't get home until 6:30pm. In his defense I really haven't asked him to take the kids off my hands so I can go for a walk. I should. I'd have to use code talk so my 3yr old wouldn't tag along. I'd take them for a walk via stroller but it's not a sit and stand kind. Said 3 yr old would have to walk and then I couldn't go as far as I'd like or able to. Wahh!
Something has to change or I will continue to graduate in clothing size until I have to sew bed sheets together.
- Location:Office
- Mood: contemplative
- Music:Glenn Beck
This is a great time. He thinks I'm really neat to hang out with. He wants me to kiss him good night and pat him. I'm the one he cries for when he's hurt or wants his butt wiped... okay that last part can pass ANY time now. But all in all, he loves his mommy and wants to be around me. I have looked ahead and wondered when the time would come when all talking would cease and he'd retreat to his room or desire his friends more than me. I shudder and thank God we'r not there and may be... just may be we won't even get to that point. *sigh*
So, my main focus is trying to harness his unceasingly source of energy. The boy has to be doing something. He's a really smart cookie. To strangers he's another kid that needs drugs for ADD. They don't understand he loves to run. He loves to play and learn. I always feel like I need to explain him. I'm certain there are those who feel sorry for us, I see it in their eyes, and it bothers me.
We're looking at soccer. I think it would be perfect to burn that energy and keep him focused and disciplined. I want him to be a boy and enjoy life ... unsedated. His doctor is not worried, "He's just a boy and he's 3." *sticking my tongue out* SO THERE people!
Ok, don't know where that came from but there it is Love you son!
I settled on the Clear Complextion foaming facial cleanser. I must say that I L-O-V-E the velvetty smoothness as it goes on. I think I heard my face say "thank you." Is it weird that I look forward to that routine in the morning and then once again before bed time? I really do.
Because of this experience I stepped out of my comfort zone and recently purchased their eye firming cream. The jury is still out. It feels a bit greasy but absorbs nicely. I'm going to keep a close eye on those crows feet to see if the lines are minimized.
If all I used was the foaming cleanser I would be happy, my skin would be happy.
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Carsen did something funny yesterday. After we checked the mail I decided to sit on the front lawn and read some of it since it was beautiful outside. Tucker flipped through the Little Tykes adverisement as Carsen settled down with his back against Tucker's back. Now, no one had to teach Carsen but I watched as he grabbed a dried leaf, turn towards his brother and proceed to poke Tucker's cheek with it. Tucker flinched, Carsen smiled, I laughed. Carsen decided to pull grass and drop that on Tucker's neck and down his shirt. Tucker fussed, Carsen smiled BIGGER and I laughed louder. Too funny!
Already, at 1 yr of age, Carsen is making life miserable for Tucker. What am I in for?
I love my boys!
- Mood: chipper
- Music:talk radio
"How could a loving God send sinners to hell? He doesn’t. They volunteer."
It continues:
"Once there, they don’t want to leave. The hearts of damned fools never soften; their minds never change. “Men were scorched with great heat, and they blasphemed the name of God who has power over these plagues; and they did not repent and give Him glory” (Rev. 16:9 NKJV). Contrary to the idea that hell prompts remorse, it doesn’t. It intensifies blasphemy.
Remember the rich man in torment? He could see heaven but didn’t request a transfer. He wanted Lazarus to descend to him. Why not ask if he could join Lazarus? The rich man complained of thirst, not of injustice. He wanted water for the body, not water for the soul. Even the longing for God is a gift from God, and where there is no more of God’s goodness, there is no longing for him. Though every knee shall bow before God and every tongue confess his preeminence (Rom. 14:11), the hard-hearted will do so stubbornly and without worship. There will be no atheists in hell (Phil. 2:10–11), but there will be no God-seekers either."
On a side note, Gloria may be celebrating Easter with her Lord and Savior today. The matriarch of our company suffered a brain hemmorage and is in the ICU. I've know her for 15 yrs and she was like a grandmother to me. A great and strong Italian woman in her 80's. She made the best Italian food and my Christmas favorite were her turtle cookies. She'll be reunited with her wonderful husband, John.
Tell him we miss him, Gloria.
- Mood:
sad
He had a blast. Carsen loved eating his birthday cake. I think he was in a chocolate coma there for a second or two. LOL
As you can see we had great weather. Thank you Lord for the breeze or we would have been sweating. We had a great turn out. I really loved the fruit bowl my sister brought. It's a Mexican thing, but there were cucumbers, cantalope, watermelon and pineable and fresh coconut but all of these fruit were drizzled with lime juice and a tiny bit of salt. WOW! That lime juice really set this off much to my surprise. Yumm E
Tucker thoroughly enjoyed Carsen's toys while Carsen tried to eat dirt, rocks and pesky acorns. It was great to be around family and I was sorry to see them go. Mom couldn't make it because Curtis fell ill.
We bought Carsen a walk-behind toy which he loves when his brother let's him play with it.
If you think of Carsen please pray. The poor birthday boy is suffering from allergies and didn't sleep too well. He's a snotty little boy. I'm trying out Zyertec. I hope it works.
- Mood: content
Easter is more than the egg hunt, more than chocolate bunnies and those devine Cadbury eggs. Easter is the pinnacle in every Christian's faith, the HOPE that lives within us, that Jesus came and died for our sins. He chose to die for us just as we are. For those who are bound in sexual addictions, rich or poor, the smoker and non-smoker. He didn't ask that we change our lives before He died. He saw the drug addict and said, "I want him, just as he is."
God's love changes US.
But praise God, it doesn't end there with His death on the cross. On the third day Jesus rose from the dead and now we can choose to live with him when our lives here are finished. He PROMISED and I believe.
- Location:Work
- Mood:
grateful - Music:Glenn Beck
March 18, 2007, 4:30pm Sunday afternoon Carsen James Shewmaker arrived via emergency c-section. He was 6 lbs 4.5 oz. and 19 inches long. I got to briefly lay eyes on him and give him a kiss before he was whisked away. He was having trouble breathing. He was premature at 35 weeks and 1 day.
Carsen turns 1 tomorrow. Truely this year has whizzed by. He still looks like a baby to me. May be it's the chunky cheeks? We had his party this past Saturday and it was beautiful weather.
I'm a theme type mom. It was "Puppy" themed. I made the cake to look like a puppy toy he got for Christmas last year. I almost didn't make it but Thursday I had to pick up the boys early from day care because Carsen had a fever. Well, Carsen couldn't return for 24 hrs so I stayed home with him and I was able to decorate his cake with out having to stay up until 2:30 am. Yay me!
Side note - I think the fever may be due to the ear infection that hasn't gone away.
There was a decent turn out for the party. Mom got sick so she stayed home, for which we are ALL thankful, allbeit she and Curtis were sorely missed. Carsen, Tucker and his friends all had fun. Carsen enjoyed his cake. BOY was he a mess. Tucker enjoyed all of Carsen's toys, especially the bubble machine. Thanks Donna and Lane.
I was prepared to host a huge party but a bit relieved I didn't have to. You can't beat being surrounded family and a few close friends.
Stats:
Weight: 24 lbs 14 oz
5 teeth
Cruising and standing
Took two steps only because he was throwing himself at me
Eats table foods
Transitioning to milk and a sippy cup
Words: Mama, Dada, Tucker "cucker", kitty cat "K kat", bye bye
He's doing pretty well these days. Love ya bub.
- Location:work
- Mood: calm
- Music:talk radio
One of my aunt's rang the warning bell when I was in my early 20's, "Take care of those crow's feet now..." blah blah blah What does she know? Both her and my mom have deep lines, crow's feet, why did I think it wouldn't happen to me? Noooo, I was too busy laying in the sun getting that golden tan.
I also learned that with aging comes receeding gum lines. Holy cow! Enough already. How do you get used to this? My mind feels young but my body tells me things are changing. I'm not falling apart.. yet but what can I say? I hurt in places I've never hurt. My left wrist hurts that any wrong tweeking and the pain flares up for days. I can't put my full weight on it. I'M GETTING OLD.
So, my mission is to work out and eat healther... ok that sounds real good typing it but REALLY hard to lay down the Milkyway bar or Cheetos. I'm going to buy some new tennis and go to a nearby track and walk during my lunch breaks when this crazy Texas weather settles down.
I decided I'm going to enjoy my last year being in my 30's instead of preparing to be 40.
- Location:desk
- Mood:
blah - Music:silence... for once
On the ride home, after diner at Chili's, I pointed out the bright round moon to Tucker. "Wow." He said, genuinely excited. "Where's the sun Momma?"
I told him the Sun was off work and was sleeping now.
"Why?"
"He had a long day and he's tired."
"Where he sleep at?"
Oye. "He went home to sleep behind the mountains."
"Where he's at?"
Todd interjects, "His Mommy told him to go to bed so he did."
"HE doesn't have a Mommy." Tucker was amused
"Okay, Jesus told him his job was over and he needed to go to sleep." I replied.
Tucker seemed ok with that.
"I'm going to get my hamonica and wake him up."
Todd and I chuckled. Only a child could think he had the power to wake up the sun. Well, when we got home he and Todd were the first to get inside while I gathered up Carsen and his diaper bag. By the time I made it to the front door Tucker had trompped up to us with his "hamonica" in hand.
If I could only put Carsen down fast enough and grab the camera I would have taken the next scene to freeze that moment in time. I entertained Tucker, opened the screen door and told him to step out on to the porch. There we were, Tucker and his harmonica and Carsen in my arms.
Tucker hummed a few bars looked out into the night and with a scrunched up face said, "Where he at? He didn't wake up." "No, he's fast asleep. We'll try again in the morning." Wtih that we turned around and back into the house we went.
I love his imagination.
- Location:work
- Mood: enthralled
- Music:Glenn Beck
Carsen see the other 1 year olds eating table foods and he pitches a fit if he can't eat what they are eating. One teacher said, "That boy is too big to be on baby food." LOL Carsen weighs 24 lbs. and 4oz at 11 mos old. His brother weighs 30 lbs and a half at 3 yrs old!! Carsen is already wearing 18mos in shirts and 12mos in pants. He's my big boy.
I went to the store and bought some Gerber Graduates for him. There was no way I could wait another day for him to share in the table foods. I wish I could squeeze him right now. He's so easy going. He's a happy baby and generally laid back.
I recently took him to see the doctor for congestion and gunky eyes that he's been dealing with for 3 wks now. Much to our surprise he had an ear infection but never let on that he was in any pain. This is his first time being on anitbiotics.
Todd screwed up his leg and now he is on crutches and wearing a "boot." The crappy thing is it was his bad leg. Several years ago he was in a motorcycle accident. His right calf had to be reconstructed out of a muscle they took out of his back and he has a titanium rod in his leg.
He's on the couch right now with a bad sprain and a really nasty bruise. He thinks he also bruised his bone. So, he's been laid up.
I started my new position as Nursery Director. I thought I was going to be shadowing the current fill-in but much to my surprise, Sunday morning, she informed me she had house guests and would be back for the 2nd service. WHAT?
- Location:Home sweet home
- Mood:
peaceful - Music:dishwasher
1. My nails break so much faster
2. My hair is fuzzy... kinda like fly away
3. My hands are drier and the skin around my nails and fingertips are prone to cracking
4. And the darn wrinkles (curse you lines) around my eyes and mouth. I'm NOT "fine" with these lines.
Now the latter point COULD be due to my disdain of water, the vital sustinence of life.
I have poked around on the net and have learned that I need shampoos and conditioners with proteins in them to strengthen my hair. I also need to use gentler cleansers for my face. Those facial scrubs with course additives are NOT good for my aging skin. *sigh* Also, it's vitally important to up the spf in my moisturizers, heck that would be wise for anyone.
I started using a facial moisturizer of sorts, a product called Bellaplex to help boost collegen. I haven't seen any noticeable fine lines disappearing but my skin feels great. It's not dried out anymore. The lotion absorbs rather quickly so I'm not waiting much put my make up on.
I found a magazine, MORE, for women 40 +. I purchased it yesterday. I'm going to see if it's going to be a great tool to have or may be I'll find a better one out there. I'll be back to update but that's where I'm at right now in this quest to gather knowledge for entering the 40's. Stay tuned.
- Location:work
- Music:Rush Limbaugh
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